help!
It’s not about the worry that unemployment rate will be up because I don’t have a job. It’s about having a job when everything is against it and nothing is there for it.
If I’ll have my way, I wouldn’t mind wiping somebody’s ass off. I wouldn’t mind eating up the dust tailing my boss’ car. The bad thing is that I don’t have a boss nor his car.
I’m not desperate for a job. I’m just looking for one. It’s not so much about the compulsion. Not so much about necessity. It’s about circumstance. That the job would be the most wonderful thing for me today is an understatement.
What separates me from my would-be job is people’s expectation. And my personal demon. The demon that nags me ceaselessly to finish first in the licensure exams. Or be part of the list of the top examinees.
I’m about to type my resume. I’m about to splash my credentials over a paper. I’m about to bolster that urge to go for the interview, ace through the examinations and land my butt on employee’s chair.
Obviously, I’m not doing that. Obviously, I consumed my one hour hoping something sensible will come out from my writing. If I am to choose now between hell and high waters, I’d go to bed and have a good nightmare. Scare the soul out of me. Purge this filth and guilt I feel. Exorcise this awkward moments of uncertainty, of stupid indecision, of this torning between two equally attractive modes of living. Of tentativeness.
Hope somebody helps me.
Hoi, make up your mind..everything is temporary..go what’s good for you today and fulfill your dreams next day…feed first yoursef, the situation we have today might be reverse six months from now, i might confine myself in that office you will have..basta ET! god bless, hope i offered enough help…
Arnold said this on April 9, 2007 at 8:12 am